Episode 7 - Anjaneya’s desperation

Anjaneya thought: “I have surveyed the water pools, the ponds, the streams and the rivers. I have surveyed the valleys, the forts, the forests and the mountains; but not found Sita, notwithstanding the message of Sampati, the Bird King, that Sita is here. Has she surrendered to the crooked Ravana in her helpless condition? Or was she terrified and lost her life while being carried over the sea in a hurry by Ravana? Did Ravana or his evil-minded wives swallow her up as she would not submit to him? Probably, she has given up her life languishing for Rama, who is as handsome as the moon. Or she may be held prisoner here like a caged bird. In any case, the news that Sita is dead or is not traced is too terrible to be conveyed to Rama. I do not know whether my duty lies in telling the truth or withholding the truth. In either case, there is great danger.”

Anjaneya continued to brood over the consequences of his failed mission: “What will be my accomplishment if I return to Kishkindha without seeing Sita? My cruel message to Rama will cause his death and will be followed by Lakshmana’s and Sugriva’s deaths. Even Bharata and Satrughna (Rama’s brothers in addition to Lakshmana) will die along with their spouses. In consequence, their mothers, Kousalya, Sumitra and Kaikeyi will also die. The Vanaras who have been kept in good humour, well cared for and respected by the indulgent Vanara King will also give up their lives.”

“The alternative for me is to stay on here and then Rama and Lakshmana, the great warriors, and the Vanaras, will live in the hope of finding Sita. I shall live here under a tree near the sea, accepting only that food which comes my way and lead the life of an ascetic. Otherwise, I shall enter the fire or the deep waters and die. I have lost my name and fame acquired over a period of time.”